Proverbs 22:3 A prudent person forsees danger and takes precautions, The simpleton goes blindly and suffers the consequences. NLT
I turned 57 on Wednesday. I don’t like birthdays at all. That’s 3 years from 60… dang… My sweet husband said all of the right words, talking about “the alternative” and being kind. He spent the day making my birthday wonderful. But still, I have been a little all in my emotions this week.
Where I am in my life is a direct result of the decisions I have made. I’m an impulsive person. It has taken me all of my life to learn to pray first, THINK about my decision, and wait. I hate to wait. I want what I want when I want it and how I want it. I want everybody else to want what I want, too. Slowly, I am learning that if I have the slightest little feeling of doubt in my heart about something, then the answer should be “no”. If I had done this or that differently, my life would have taking a different path and I would be at a different destination today. Don’t get me wrong. I have a good life. I just know that if I’d made better decisions, I’d have a much better life. I know that everyone has regrets, we can’t change the past, and all of the other cliches’ we use. Heard them, said them.
So now what?
God, today, I ask You to work on my stubborness to be obedient to You. I cannot change my impulsive decisions of my past, but I can listen to You for my future. Where I will be tomorrow, next week, even next year will be a result of the decision I make today. What I want for me depends on what I choose for me. Help me to choose wisely. Help me to seek Your guidance for what You have in store for me. Thank You for your grace as I work to find balance in my life.