1 Timothy 4:16 Pay close attention to your life and your teaching. Persevere in these things, because if you do so, you will save both yourself and those who listen to you. ISV
Things are changing rapidly in my life. I feel so out of balance. Some ot the changes, I have asked for while some, I definitely have not. I have found myself “in a mood”, resentful and bitchy. Why doesn’t anybody see where I am and help me pick up the slack? LORD, don’t you hear me?
Why? Because I am an enabler. There….I said it. I’d rather get up and do the laundry, the dishes, sweep the floor, go to a session, drive home near midnight, edit all morning and do it over the next day….and get madder by the second until I just am ready to slap the sin out of those around me.
The same goes with my work life. You know, I want to change some things. I want better for us. I want to manage our finances better. But “wants” and “gets” are two different things. The awakening I have had is that I am also enabling MY frustrations. Making a change in my life is necessary, and no matter how much I bitch or how much I pray, I am the only one who can begin the process.
God, I haven’t been setting the best example lately. I’m so frustrated that I have myself so wrapped around the axle of life. Time to get untangled. Thank You for this verse today. It was exactly what I needed to read to show me that, through You, I have the power to settle down, make goals, and make life better.